Table For One

I'm walking down in the basement
I'm leaning on the washing machine
I'm reaching back through a hole in the wall's insulationI'm pulling out a bottle of vodka
Replacing that with a pint of Jim Bean
I'm lying down on the floor until I feel betterIt's morning and I pour myself coffee
I drink it 'til the kitchen stops shaking
I'm backing out of the driveway and into creationAnd the loving spirit that follows me
Watching helplessly, will always forgive meOh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me
I wanna bring down all those demons who drank with me
Feasting bleed through me, on my desperationI hide all the bottles in places
They find and confront me with pain in their eyes
And I promise that I'll make some changesBut reaching back it occurs to me
There will always be some kind of crisis for meOh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me
I wanna bring back all those moments they stole from me
In my reverie, darkening days endOh, I wanna die alone with my memories inside me
I wanna live that life when I could say people had faith in me
I still see that guy in my memoryOh, I wanna die alone with my sympathy beside me
I wanna bring down all those people who drank with me
Watching happily, my humiliation